Dear God: Can you please write a book on life? Thanks.

Hey everyone- again, long time no blog. The usual.
What an insane week- but yet, is my life ever normal?
No.
Actually, though, the past little while my life turned to a new page. One I don't even know how to handle- and usually I'm pretty confident with new challenges. But this? No. I'm terrified. You know what it is?
The opposite sex.
Yes, boys.
Ack.
Lets just sum this all up in a nice, short little bit - I've had crushes before... but not of this variety. I can't even spend a second with him out of my brain...
Oh my gawd. I sound like some lovesick teenager! Only ones that you read about.
Ack.
He's really sweet though... someone who has that outside layer, but underneath they are really sweet and considerate.
Its just kinda tough tearing away that outer layer.
We were chatting on Facebook chat, (sadly, it was just chit-chat) and he brought up some... sort of bad memories that I made myself forget.
He made me realize how much my life has changed for the better.
Sometimes, I guess, its good to remember the bad times in order for you to recognize the good. And I had forgotten. Correction- I made myself forget. Who wants to remember those things anyways?
I'm really glad I did end up remembering. The pain of the past 2 years really made me appreciate how good everything is now.
It was just nice to see... how someone actually cared about me, though. That's how he made me remember... he was actually asking about how I was, and if I ever got hurt. No one actually cared before. I really hope he means it though... and maybe feels the same way about me as I feel about him.
I'm sorry readers- this probably makes no sense.
But I hope you can kind of relate.
Don't you wish life was actually like fairytales- always with a happy ending?
I know I sure do. Everyday.

Torching the Smoke,
leahpeia.